Mesothelioma Cancer

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I’m 13 at the moment and using my sister’s account. Don’t worry she said I could!
Last year my father was admitted into hospital. It was unknown what was wrong with him. Eventually he was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer… He didn’t want to tell me and when I asked him, he told me it was something about his liver. My mum told me the truth, that he had cancer.
He was in there for 6weeks. And in that short time he deteriorated. He had a wish and that was to go home. From the day he went to the hospital, he never got out. The day we were going to take him home, his health was horrible. He was extremely skinny. He was losing consciousness, but fighting. My dad was never one to give up. But he couldn’t win. He lost consciousness. My older sister Melanie, stayed there overnight with her boyfriend and my older brother Alex and his wife. They were in a private room. After the third day he was unconscious, my mum picked me up from school to take me there. I went home got changed and we went to the hospital. I walked down the aisle, to his room. I walked in and Alex,Mel and everyone else was standing there. Mel hugged me and said “I’m so sorry” and I knew what she meant. I couldn’t believe it.
Later that night , we went home to dad’s house (my mum and him were split). I was a zombie. I played the Cars game on X-box with my niece, like nothing was wrong. But I was hurting. I didn’t want it to show to my family. It would just make things worse.
Since then I’ve gotten better. But I just can’t get over it. No one knows. I cry myself to sleep alot and I’m still in pain.
I want to get over it. I act normal but I’m not. I don’t know what to do…
I haven’t spoken to anyone about it. My mum isn’t helpful at all! And my sister has her own problems.
Thanks…

my dad died a year ago on October 20th, of 2008. I’m not sure on how to deal with it. he died of Pancreatic Cancer, which is a very slow and painful death which made him suffer for 2+ years. my dad and i was best friends. we did everything together. he was a hunter, fisher, Ohio state buckeyes fan, a Cleveland browns fan, stoner, and a party’r, and we did this together many times. when i got my deer in ‘07 my dad was like a kid in a candy store, jumping up and down screaming (if you know what Pancreatic Cancer is you know that put him in pain afterwords) my dad was a ladies man and always managed to get with girls 18 years old, that was weird when they slept together and my dad wouldn’t call them so they called my cell looking for him. i have to say at 52 my dad still had “it”. lol but since last year it has been really lonely for me. i haven’t gone hunting or fishing since then. if anyone has any advise for trying to deal with it please let me know!!!

my dad died a year ago on October 20th, of 2008. I’m not sure on how to deal with it. he died of Pancreatic Cancer, which is a very slow and painful death which made him suffer for 2+ years. my dad and i was best friends. we did everything together. he was a hunter, fisher, Ohio state buckeyes fan, a Cleveland browns fan, stoner, and a party’r. when i got my deer in ‘07 my dad was like a kid in a candy store, jumping up and down screaming (if you know what Pancreatic Cancer is you know that put him in ALOT of pain afterwords) my dad was a ladies man and always managed to get with girls as young as 18 years old, that was weird when they would call my cell looking for him. i have to say at 52 my dad still had “it”. lol but since last year it has been really lonely for me. i haven’t gone hunting or fishing since then. but i recently got my hunting license and score a 91%! I know my Dad would be so proud of me! I am also graduating early, and going to college to get my training n to be a hospice nurse. I figure I should give beck to the community like they help my father, and they tried to help him manage the pain. and you best believe that if he needed anything I was there to help him, whether it was gettin up and down, giving him his meds, just watching tv all night, and helping him with anything. we would stay up eating a HUGE tub of bologna salad and drinking beer till 5 in the morning, he was there for me for anything and i thought it was my time to be there for him. i would give everything up just to spend one day of father/daughter time with him again… obviously i have no one to talk to about this cause my mom is abusive, and the day i barried my dad she told my that she was getting married to this prick she was dating. and my family always have thought that i was going nowhere, that i was just gonna be on welfare my whole life, and my cuzn was the golden child. well i am making something of myself at the age of 16!! while he is having a kid at 20 years old, hasn’t graduated, or even got his GED and he just got his first job. idk what to do, i miss my daddy and i want him back! i know that is greedy cause he is in a better place but he is my daddy. what do I do?!?!?!?!?! i am soooooo lost.

I took care of my mother for the 3 months she was battling Pancreatic cancer. I have nightmares and break down at the drop of a hat. I have become angry, over-emotional and dream of escaping my life by running away or committing suicide. Is this normal?

He died a slow, painful death because of pancreatic cancer, if you must know.
I just noticed I’ve become more irritable (increasingly irritable) since he died. Why is that? Could that be a part of the grieving process? Every little thing ticks me off!