Was I Responsible For Their Deaths? Or Is This Just A Coincidence?

Filed Under (Pancreatic Cancer) by admin on 28-02-2010

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When my brother was still alive (died of pancreatic cancer), he had a tube inserted in his stomach. The doctors explained it was to keep something separate (I don’t know from what). If that tube moved, my brother would be dead.
Well, the tube moved and we rushed him to the hospital. Everything turned out to be okay, got fixed, and we were sent home after long hours at the hospital.
On our way out, we heard some people saying they wish the tube had moved!
I was like, “You wish my brother dead?! Well, up yours! Screw you! I hope you’re the ones who die!”
That night, those people got into a car accident. All dead. Did I kill them by wishing death on them? Was it my fault? Was I responsible for their deaths? Or was it merely a coincidence?

I’m Really Scared…i Was Just Diagnosed…and I Cant Deal With It?

Filed Under (Pancreatic Cancer) by admin on 18-02-2010

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Yesterday I was just diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and apparently its pretty bad. Ive been home sick for a while now, and im terrified. Im only a teenager, 14 to be exact, and i have so much to live for, so much to live up to. Im scared of what im gonna miss out on. How many opportunities are gonna pass me by before I get to experience them. I want to be brave like Patrick Swayze and Farrah Fawcett. I dont wanna be afraid to die but I am…

I Just Don’t Seem To Care Anymore?

Filed Under (Pancreatic Cancer) by admin on 13-02-2010

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Recently my school work has just been a total failure, I should be at school right now, but just don’t really seem to care a bit about it at all. I have loans out plus federal aid money so I am really just setting myself up to get ****** and don’t want that to happen but my dads got pancreatic cancer, i’ve been moving, I just have pretty much been trying but I get in this space where I just don’t seem to care anymore. it kinda leads me to just saying **** it or whatever and staying home and maybe smoking pot or whatever (not really necessary) or i’ll go for a run or whatever. do whatever, you know do my thing. but I just don’t seem to care about the very serious consequences of this?

I Just Don’t Seem To Care Anymore?

Filed Under (Pancreatic Cancer) by admin on 10-02-2010

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Recently my school work has just been a total failure, I should be at school right now, but just don’t really seem to care a bit about it at all. I have loans out plus federal aid money so I am really just setting myself up to get ****** and don’t want that to happen but my dads got pancreatic cancer, i’ve been moving, I just have pretty much been trying but I get in this space where I just don’t seem to care anymore. it kinda leads me to just saying **** it or whatever and staying home and maybe smoking pot or whatever (not really necessary) or i’ll go for a run or whatever. do whatever, you know do my thing. but I just don’t seem to care about the very serious consequences of this?

I’m Really Scared…i Was Just Diagnosed…and I Cant Deal With It?

Filed Under (Pancreatic Cancer) by admin on 08-02-2010

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Yesterday I was just diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and apparently its pretty bad. Ive been home sick for a while now, and im terrified. Im only a teenager, 14 to be exact, and i have so much to live for, so much to live up to. Im scared of what im gonna miss out on. How many opportunities are gonna pass me by before I get to experience them. I want to be brave like Patrick Swayze and Farrah Fawcett. I dont wanna be afraid to die but I am…