Mesothelioma Cancer

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When my brother was still alive (died of pancreatic cancer), he had a tube inserted in his stomach. The doctors explained it was to keep something separate (I don’t know from what). If that tube moved, my brother would be dead.
Well, the tube moved and we rushed him to the hospital. Everything turned out to be okay, got fixed, and we were sent home after long hours at the hospital.
On our way out, we heard some people saying they wish the tube had moved!
I was like, “You wish my brother dead?! Well, up yours! Screw you! I hope you’re the ones who die!”
That night, those people got into a car accident. All dead. Did I kill them by wishing death on them? Was it my fault? Was I responsible for their deaths? Or was it merely a coincidence?

On December 5, 2009 i lost my dad to pancreatic cancer. things have changed and things seemed normal for awhile, we were all grieving and healing,then my mom (an alcoholic) decides she wants to drink. my dad only let her drink once a year for this reason. now a lil over my dads death and she drinks almost every week and sometimes ill come home from school (im 16) and she’ll be like your watching Cali we’re going out tonight. today it’s almost 5 in the morning and my aunt called looking if she came home yet about 4:30 and i said no so we were worried about that.Im totally stressed out as it is, im so scared im gonna wake up one day and hear i lost my mom too, shes 45, bout time she grew up i say…but i cant tell her, i’ve told her before and she just gets mad. i need help

im really pissed off at my so called best friend at the moment
first of all..she knows that my dad has pancreatic cancer, and he just got surgey done in the past month to remove the tumor
not once did she even bother to ask if he was okay or if i was okay
when i asked her why she didnt bother asking she said sorry i forgot
i said, well is it really that hard to ask “Are you okay” or “is your dad okay”
this was a couple days ago, i hvent spoken to her since and she hasnt even done anything to make me see that our friendship is even worth fighting for
she hasnt even come up to me and talked which i dont understnad, i didnt even do anything wrong
i have no intentions on saying sorry either, i didnt dont anything
my other friend that im not too close with asks me like everyday,
well i thought that best friends were supposed to do these kinds of things, correct me if im wrong
throughout the past months, she has only asked twice

My grandfather is 87 years old and has been suffering from a combination of Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s diseases for at least 5 years now. He has been terribly miserable because these are very slow acting but debilitating illnesses and he is always saying that he wants to die because he is so sick.
He was experiencing alot of abdominal pain last week and ended up going to the hospital and it turns out that he has pancreatic cancer and will not live for more than a year at most. My first reaction was relief because he finally has something that will put him out of his misery. I know he will experience alot of pain before the end, but I am still glad that the slow decline of Parkinson’s disease is over.
Am I a horrible person?

i never want anyone to see me cry, i never want anyone to know the inside im broken, it pisses me off when people start hugging and crying…and telling me that its gonna be okay, when it wont
whats wrong with me??
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this is whats going on:::
one of my friends know that my dad has pancreatic cancer, she hasnt even bothered to ask if hes okay, or if im okay
i feel like my friends dont even want me around
they dont tell me anything and im always not talking because i have no idea what there doing anymore
during lunch they walk really fast and leave me behind
there always calling me dumb and they think i know nothing
and i stutter, whenever i do they start smiling
i find it beeeeeeyyyondd RUDE
im starting to hate them all so much
ive been really distant with them for the past couple days, hanging out with other people at lunch and they havent even asked where i was…
im in grade ten