Mesothelioma Cancer

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About 2 months ago, I finally decided to be open with my mother about seeing an old but very loyal and wonderful boyfriend (known eachother and our families for 16 years! since highschool) he and I parted ways for about 7 but came back together naturally. He has been diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer and has opted for holistic treatment. He left his family, friends and life in Cali to be with and I quote “the woman that I love, my best friend, and I just want to be happy for as long as I can”. At the same time I also FINALLY found my biological father, grandparents and extended family in Louisiana and another 1/2 brother. I should also note that both of my parents sent me to live with diff relatives off and on since I was 7 till I was about 16 years old because they were financially and lifewise irresponsible and I suffered (but never sent the other kids away). I am a people pleaser, a straight A student (now 30), a great home, EXCELLENT job, respect of coworkers and am a real sweetheart and have let my family use me for hundreds of thousands of dollars, in groceries, cell phones, bank accounts, bank loans, credit cards, gas money and everything else… So I guess what I want to know is after being open and honest letting her know exactly that my bf is living with me and I found my other family, she said ” I have no response, good luck”. and of late said ” Do you still have people living with you?” She has always controlled me and now she can’t, but I am remaining the bigger person (have not cut her off, keep her in the loop). Why is she punishing me and being so rude? and why do I feel guilty about trying to pry myself out of her control and truly be happy?
Been depressed for 10 years until my other fam and bf came into the picture now am happy and hopeful…

For the past couple days, I’ve had a teeny bit of pain, between my hip and ribcage on the left side of my body. My immediate thought was Appendicitis, but I always thought your appendix was on the right side of your body, thought I also read it can feel like it radiates from the other side…
As of today, the pain is consistent instead of off and on. So /then/ I stopped thinking ‘Appendicitis’ and started thinking ‘Pancreatic Cancer’, because my mind lives to be negative. I’m not really showing any of the symptoms aside from pain, according to the thing I looked up…
ANOTHER THING. I was kind of subconsciously kneading the tissue there, since that’s how I automatically react to feeling pain. I pressed down and could have sworn I felt something pop…
PLEASE tell me someone has the slightest idea about what’s up…

I just want to know how to go a week with back/abdominal pain. I know what it’s from, I have pancreatic cancer. I finished my last round of chemo on Jan 3rd and I have to go back in on Jan 20th.
I generally have a high pain threshold and I’ve been doing okay but my lower back has been hurting a bit the last few days and got a lot worse today and moved to lower abdomen.
I don’t want to make anyone worry or go back into hospital yet because my parents have booked a week a way for our family leaving the day after tomorrow and everyone’s been looking forward to it for ages.
So my question is, do you have any advice just to get me through this week? I am taking my usual pain medication, thinking about increasing it but worry about running out on the trip and or being a complete zombie. Is there anything else I can do (preferably in private)?
I will go back to my doctor after the holiday.

My mom has pancreatic cancer. She was told she had 2-3 months to live. This was at the beginning of February. She has had alot of problems with pneumonia, and intestinal blockages. She survived all those hurdles, and is now in a hospice house. Since she arrived at hospice she’s doing much better. Since she feels well, and isn’t in any pain right now, she thinks that death is not that close. She wants to move alot of her belongings into the hospice. The way she talks, it sounds like she thinks she’s going to be there for a long time. We have talked to her, the Dr’s, nurses etc, and she says yes she knows she’s going to die, but everytime we turn around she’s talking about 2, 3, 4, months from now. It is so stressful for us having to deal with this. And also we live a 6-7 hour drive away, and have been driving back & forth now for the past month.
Any suggestions? She is 83, but still has all (most) of her marbles

Basically, the last few months have not been that great.
One of my grandpa’s went to the hospital after a minor stroke and was diagnosed with microvascular disease. My grandma his primary caretaker, has also fallen a lot recently and probably has alsiemer’s setting in.
On top of having to worry and travel to care for them, my other grandparents have been going through problems. My other grandma was x-rayed two days ago. They found tumors taking over her liver. She’s going through surgery on Monday to remove what can be removed, but the liver is yellowing (failing) already. it’s probably pancreatic cancer. There aren’t very high hopes for her if it is.
I hate to be selfish, but at the same time, there’s me. I’m 18, and graduating this year. Basically, I’m going through the “who am I and what do I do well” process. I basically needed a place to vent, and any ideas to help me straighten out my life other than therapy (tried it. No good).
Thanks for reading.